Patience and Waiting

I believe that the waiting from Monday with Dr. Kim when no information was given until Thursday with Dr.Esquival not knowing if He would explain things was the hardest time so far. There are people that live everyday waiting and not knowing on a much grander scale . My heart goes out to them.

Learning to rest on the Lord in the waiting times is something I'm learning slowly. Yet it was and is often in those times the Lord and my relationship grows more personal and real.

Another area I've discovered to be tough is family reactions -- I might be comforted by God and have peace but it affects each person and each person allows things to affect them differently. It is hard to trust God to care for each family member and meet them where they are and bring them to the next step in their relationship to Him. Yet his love and care for me lets me know He is there for them as well. My prayer is they will receive what He wants to give them.

EAT AND WALK

Those were the surgeon's words of what to do next "Eat anything and everything (protein) and walk walk walk.

Dr. Jesus Esquival met with us yesterday. He explained the physical and medical background of what is going on in my body as he and science understand it. Due to the failure to release the pathology blocks , he was unable to say conclusively what is actually going on with me. From what he had, he believes it is the low level which is good. From what I understand it would not require continued treatment after the next surgery or a rush to surgery. He said there are 3 options: do nothing; surgery with hot chemo; chemo and radiation. From what he sees the third is not a necessary option in my case.

Meanwhile what can I do -- Eat and Walk Eat and Walk Eat and Walk.

I did lose weight with this last surgery and if I have more surgery as Dr. Esquival recommends I will lose more so Eat and Walk Eat and Walk. :)